If I surrender all it means the end of me.
The person I've held onto for so long,
Gone.
But you make all things new.
Kneeling at your feet
I feel the weight of insecrity melt away.

This overwhelming love radiates in front of me
The only response I know to give is tears
Because no one has ever loved me that way.
No one else ever will.

The sufficiency of your grace is mine for the taking
But it means becoming less.
What if the cost is too much?
Will you ask me to abandon my dreams?

The desires of my heart
I crave
To be your desires.
In the face of an uncertain future
I relinquish all plans I once possessed.

If I plan it means I'm not listening
"How can you not know where you're going?"
They may ask.
I'd say "It doesn't matter."
I want to be breathless when I get to each new scene
Knowing God had it scripted down for me.

I do have a dream
To change the world.
But its not my plan
It is not my story
Its His.
and I'm just the supporting cast.

Direct me God
Give me my cues
And in each scene I'll respond the way you've written
Because I love you.
Its the least I can do.

ophelia's song

delicate flower
the girl wishes she could be
scorned by the man she loves
will anyone advocate for her?

torn apart amongst a family fued
yet hope remains in her fragile heart.
searching for the love she once knew?

denmark's prince turns away unfamiliar
did not she know him once
two hearts together
now so far apart

helper she wants to be
but serpentine he beleives her
stretched in a million directions
wanting to stand set apart.

she longs for brotherly comfort
for her mother's loving embrace
nothing seems to heal the wound
nothing

ophelia is losing grip
she's falling apart
reaching out for something
she's unable to grasp

turn back the hands of time
no
it only brings more tears

careful before you slip young ophelia
fairy tears and fennel might be your demise

find a reason to go on
find a reason to be strong

denmark's prince cannot complete you
you are a ruby to the core
in faith you must endure

walking with you
i ache for it
to feel you close to me
knowing you'll never leave

my best friend
my lover
you complete me

seeing your face
your smile mesmerizes me
i know this is love
all i want is to be here

my confidant
my companion
you complete me

feeling true joy
i hold your hand
my insecurities plague me
and yet you love me

i tried to fill the space
the hole that remained vacant
my heart felt lost
until you rescued me

the universe stopped in its tracks
i saw you for the first time
you became my home
my person
my safe space

no one compares
because your beauty transcends them all
the depths of my soul cry out
and i am satisfied

to read your words
to feel you next to me
to remember  your promise
to understand your peace
to know you love me

its a slow steady progression
i am intrigued
i like you
i love you
i am in love with you
i am nothing without you

Jesus...i am nothing without you